please forgive me

Hey there Superman I guess that you fell down again A super hero that never learned to fly You try so hard just to be loved You fell from the heavens above And you start to cry as another one walks away, Hey there Superman I guess you got knocked down again I never meant to hurt you But I guess I'm just like them, Hey there Superman You cant save the world Hey there Superman Same story different girl Hey there Superman I didn't mean to let you down, from the way I look at it you should apologize for letting me down. Hey there Superman Why do you still let me come around Hey there Superman Rest your weary head Hey there Superman Times like these I wish I were dead Hey there Superman Don’t lose your will to fight Hey there Superman It’ll be alright You picked me up and brushed me off When I fell through the air Now I kind of wonder why you couldn't’t just leave me there. Hey there Superman It’ll be alright.
Love Always,
Kryptonite

This is for those girls who got blinded by love, who fell back in love with their ex, only to get hurt all over again. Here's to all those girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning and be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, and moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened.Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be your friend, one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you. you deserve something, better. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change.We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, and even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, and ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time.And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated. Here's to who did their hair and make up and put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for who loved him more than words can say, and took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day and wonder "what if". This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, and cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is for who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, and get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time." Here's to who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just TELL that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts, and their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us.We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here's for the ones that FINALLY realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, and the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here are for who finally realized that we deserve better, we were just blinded by love.

For those confusing days, when you miss him, and want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong, and remember that relationships are like broken glass, sometimes its better to leave it alone rather than try to put the pieces back together and get hurt. Remember the times you cried, and how long it took you to even be able to look at another guy like that. When "your song" comes on the radio, turn the station. When the day comes that he realizes what a mistake he made and tries calling, turn your phone off. When he tries coming to your house, dont answer the door. Think of the broken promises, and the lies, the dealings and the tears, the wasted moments and staying up all night wondering where the crap he was. Think of how your heart used to jump when your phone would vibrate in the middle of the night, and how it fell to your stomach when you saw it wasnt him, and realized that once again, he hadn't called when he said he was going to. One day, you'll find a guy whose worth all the tears, but he wont make you cry. You may think that you'll never care about someone like you did that guy that you always ran back to, but you will. It's gonna hurt like crap, and its going to need time to heal, but the point is, it will heal.

After a while you learn the sophisticated difference, between holding a hand and sharing a life; and you learn that love doesn't mean possession, and company doesn't mean security. and loneliness is universal.you learn that kisses aren't contracts, and presents aren't promises, and you begin to accept your defeats, with your head up and your eyes open with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child. and you learn to build your hope on today, as the future has a way of falling apart in mid flight, because tomorrow's ground can be too uncertain for plans, yet each step taken in a new direction creates a path toward the promise of a brighter dawn; and you learn that even the sunshine burns, if you get too much. so you plant your own garden, and nourish your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.and you learn that through it all: you really can endure.that you really are strong. that you do have value; you learn and grow .. with every good bye, you learn.

To have the perfect life, You'll need the perfect hair, You'll need the perfect shoes that go with what you wear, You need the perfect smile, To compliment your perfect skin, From the pretty, perfect eyes, To the perfectly pointed chin, You'll have the perfect loyal friends, And you'll tell them what to do, For when you're beautiful and perfect ,Then the world is under you, Please cry not my dear, For you have the perfect flaw, You're perfectly imperfect, In body, clothes, and all.
Your imperfection is beautiful, I have told you how it is, Because when we learn of ugly, We forget what beauty is

1 o'clock in the morning, i'm chilling with some friends, we're hangin out until this boy walked in caught me by surprise when he didn’t say hello an attitude, why be so rude I knew just what to do pulled the boy aside, and politely gave my name told the boy dont act this way i see right through your game what she did was such a shame don't be living with her pain So let it go tonight I see the beauty within your eyes So let it go tonight I never thought that it would be me Actin' like such a fool and here I am saying boy im sorry for something i didnt do, this is my point of view baby i never meant to fall for him lately its been driving me crazy baby, you still and always will be my baby .. its 2 o'clock in the morning and it didn’t take too long for the boy to change his tune and now hes singin' a different song he's all up on me, kissing on me, loving on me whats a girl to do when her brain is all muted baby im not that girl i already got that someone in my life baby im not that girl I never thought that it would be me Actin' such a fool and here I am saying boy im sorry for something i didnt do, this is my point of view baby never meant to fall for him lately its been driving me crazy baby, you still and always will be my baby I let him in but only for a minute boy he was up in my mind but it was you i found the start you’ll always have my heart I never thought that it would be me how could I be such a fool and here I am saying boy im sorry for something i didnt do, this is my point of view baby i never meant to fall for him lately its been driving me crazy baby baby, you still and always will be my baby .. whata fool

WHO THE HELL INVENTED MATH CAMP ! WHATS THE POINT OF IT, ACTUALLY THERES LIKE A REALLY GOOD POINT BUT WHY WASTE OUR SUMMER. ITS A FACT THAT OUT PARENTS WILL FORCE US TO GO ! WHY DON'T THEY JUST MAKE MATH CAMP MANDATORY ? INSTEAD OF GUILT TRIPPING US INTO TAKING IT !

^ PS. SORRY, DRAMA QUEEN I JUST NEEDED A BLOG ! HHAAHA, BLOG YOUR GETTING OLD !

Now the past Has come alive And given meaning, And a reason To give all I can To believe once again. If it's you and me forever, If it's you and me right now, That'd be alright, Peter Pan and Wendy turned out fine. So won't you fly with me? Maybe you were just afraid Knowing you were miles away, From a place where you needed to be, And you are right here with me. But we choose to chase the stars to lose out shadow.

BEEP BEEP, WATCH OUT, MY MOST MESSED UP LAYOUT COMING THROUGH. HOLY SHIT ITS UGLY. BUT I WILL CHANGE IT SOON, PINKY PROMISE. I NEED SOMETHING FUN ! SOMETHING NEW, SOMETHING LIKE A .. JOBROS BACKGROUND !!
HAH, THAT'S A LIE, I HAVE A BACKGROUND WITH THEM I'M JUST NOT GONNA USE IT, CAUSE IT WOULD BE UGLIER, BUT I GOT LOVE. I NEED IDEA, GOLLY, I'M TEMPED TO USED LIKE THE GUYS I ADORE FOR A BACKGROUND, PROBLEM IS IT WILL LOOK UGLY, MMMMMMMM? LIGHT BULB.

I've hated you pretty much since the 4th grade, but it sounds bad saying this seeing as how you are part of my family tree. that sounded really gay but, basically i can't hate you cause your my cousin. HOLD UP, i don't hate you, on second thought I hate your cousins :D
that's a so much better way to put it, wanna know why i hate your cousins? k, it all started in .. actually I'll just explain grade by grade.
grade 3- Major party. Winnipeg people even came. and so did you. Oh and so did your non-invited other cousins whom i just seem to have a strong dislike for. but whatever it was a fun night. other than the fact that you cousins came when they weren't even freaking invited. like wtf, i don't show up to your freaking party with my friends taking over. DO I, NO. i get along with whoever the fuck is there.
grade 4- it was fun, you were there and everything. oh but i forgot to tell you i hated you for the longest time after we went back to my house and you stayed for pretty much only and hour, then left cause you had to freaking go to your other cousins house just for a freaking GET TOGETHER. WHAT THE FUCK. MY BIRTHDAY OVER A GET TOGETHER. you guys see each other like every month. and what, honestly, we only see each other, like 2-4 time each year ? yeah that was real nice what you did.
grade 5 - well, it was my party and you weren't there. i invited you but you didn't show up. where were you, WELLLL, you were out camping you with fucking other shit ass cousins. but whatever my other friends were there. like i ever needed you at my party. then came your party, nice enough for me to show up to your party like i always do, and its the time of year where i have to pretend that i actually like your cousins. i mean whatever, some of them are cool. like 1 of the ten i actually know are cool.
grade 6 i didn't do anything, either way your always out on my birthday weekend, you wouldn't have showed up anyways. GRADE 7 AND 8 IS A DIFFERENT STORY. cause i stopped having party's, and started chilling during summer.
grade 7- nothing bothered me that much, it was just envy issue's. you were going somewhere i wanted to go. i mean you were going with your other cousins. and you guys seemed to have fun. worst of all you didn't even bother to invite me. maybe cause you didn't know i was a fan, which is okay. YOU WOULDN'T HAVE KNOWN ANYWAYS CAUSE YOUR BUSY WITH YOUR OTHER COUSINS, but at least i had a better friend who didn't go anywhere.
grade 8- which is now, oh boy i hate your freaking guts. first the same thing that happened last year is happening this year, you didn't invite me, blah blah blah. but before you left, we promised that i was gonna be your first chillage after you came back. not really promised more like, i said i want to be and you said YES ! you come back, when she came back she wrote on my wall.the bold is her. CANCELLED. oh but can We reschedule. yeah sure but why ?! oh my mom said I'm gonna be to tired. - totally understandable, right ? WRONG. i called you the day after you cancelled. which is the day before our whole chillage got cancelled. and this is how it went, k you already saw the whole cancelling thing. here's the phone convo.
oh , hold up, i need to ask my mom something.
yeah sure
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back.
oh hi, so uhm, what'd you ask your mom.
oh, tomorrow I'm going to Toronto with my other cousins.
-that's pretty much how it went-
WHAAAAAAAAAT THE FUCK DID YOU SAY. ARE YOU SERIOUS. FIRST OFF, YOU LIED SAYING YOUR MOM SAID YOUR GONNA BE TO TIRED. AND NOW YOU TELL ME A FREAKING WHOLE OTHER STORY. YOU DIDN'T EVEN HOLD UP YOUR FREAKING END OF YOUR OWN LIE. YOU HOEBAG. IF YOUR GONNA DITCH ME JUST TELL ME THE TRUTH, I'M USED TO HEARING THAT YOUR LEAVING ME FOR YOUR OTHER COUSINS. I DON'T NEED TO BE TREATED LIKE A LITTLE GIRL NO MORE. I KNOW THIS MAY NOT BE A VERY NICE COUSINLY THING TO SAY BUT, I HATE YOU, YOUR GUTS AND YOUR FUCKING UGLY ASS STUPID BITCHING WANNABE COUSINS. YOUR EVEN LUCKY I'M TALKING TO A FUCKING BLOG RIGHT NOW OTHER THAN STARTING A FIGHT WITH YOU. YOUR LUCKY I HAD MY BROTHERS TO TALK ME OUT OF FREAKING PUTTING YOU PRIZED TICKETS IT A SHREDDER. YOUR LUCKY I'M SCARED TO START A FIGHT WITH MY OWN COUSIN. BUT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHERE I'M COMING FROM.
I'M THE YOUNGEST OF THE COUSINS. BUT I'M GROWING UP. SOON ENOUGH, ALL THE BUNDOCS ARE GONNA BE LEAVING HOME SOON. BUT WHEN I'M AT A FAMJAM AND YOUR NOT THERE, WANNA KNOW WHERE I AM? I'M SITTING BY MYSELF EVEN WONDERING WHY I HAD FAITH IN YOU IN COMING TO THE DAMN PARTY ANYWAYS. AFTER ALL THE TIMES YOU SAID, OH I CAN'T GO, I'M GOING CAMPING WITH MY OTHER COUSINS OR SORRY, I HAVE ANOTHER FAMILY PARTY TO GET TO AND ITS KINDA A BIG DEAL. BY THIS TIME, YOU THINK I'D GET USED TO IT. BUT I'M NOT, THE MORE YOU DITCH AS WE GET OLDER, THE MORE IT TEARS ME UP APART. YOUR GONNA GRADUATE HIGHSCHOOL SOON. YOU WANNA GO TO SCHOOL IN THE STATES. WE DON'T HAVE THAT MUCH TIME TOGETHER. IN FACT, WE'VE HARDLY HAD TIME AT ALL. AND I DON'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE KNOWING I WAS PISSED AT YOU. BUT I JUST CAN'T LOVE SOMEONE WHOSE HURT ME SOME MANY TIMES, EVEN MY OWN COUSIN. I JUST WANNA SAY, DON'T EVEN BOTHER RESCHEDULING, DON'T EVEN BOTHER COMING TO MY PARTIES ANYMORE. DON'T EVEN BOTHER TRYING TO CHANGE THINGS. CAUSE ITS NOT GONNA WORK. NOTHINGS GONNA CHANGE. YOUR STILL GONNA DITCH FOR YOUR OTHER COUSINS, YOU WON'T EVEN INVITE ME TO THE CONCERT. YOU WON'T EVEN UNDERSTAND THAT I HAVE LOVED AND MISSED YOU SO MUCH, THAT I HAD TO WRITE A FREAKING BLOG, TO GET MY FEELINGS OUT. CAUSE I DON'T WANNA MESS UP THE TERRIBLE RELATIONSHIP WE HAVE NOW. I HATE YOU FOR LEAVING ME, BUT I LOVE YOU CAUSE YOUR MY FAVORITE. ONE MORE TIME AND YOUR OUT OF MY LIFE. I HOPE YOU HAD A GREAT TIME IN TORONTO, KNOWING YOU DITCHED AND LIED TO ME. HOW DOES IT FEEL KNOWING I'VE BEEN BOTTLING UP MY FEELINGS. I HOPE YOU READ THIS AND START CRYING, CAUSE I'VE BEEN CRYING SINCE LAST SUMMER. JUST KNOW YOU ALMOST, YOU ALMOST LOST ME.
PS, if you don't get this, your not supposed too.

TEEN CHOICE AWARDS WAS BIGGEST ORGASM EVERRRR !
errr k, that was the most terrible way to put it ! but i was amazing. All the performances, presenters and hosts were hot ! holy, i got new guys to add to my list. k, one of the two biggest secrets i have. i have a list of celeberties that i love, and i promised my life that i would never unlove them no matter what happens ! but i'll tell you that next. anyways, teen choice was amazing, JO BROS AND TWILIGHT SWEEPT TEEN CHOICE, JUST THE WAY I LIKE IT :)

why the heck is there rain, thunder & lighting in summer, IN AUGUST AT THAT ! as much as i hate heat, i hate the sound of thunder more ! and its litterally like the 5th time it thundered this summer. Basically it rained every weekend. why? THE HELL WOULD I KNOW, i jus hate rain. cause it gets all damp after. damp and hot, and its give you that gay feeling of being sticky. ugh, I HATE THUNDER

ARE YOU READY, CAUSE ITS TOMORROW ! AHH, JONAS ARE HOSTING. I'M SO PUMPED ! TEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN CHOICEEEE AWARDSS OHNINE ! HOLY MUTHAAFAACKER. THATS LIKE THE ONE THING I LOOK FORWARD TO DURING THE SUMMER. OMG, WATCH IT. ITS TOMORROW AT LIKE ? 8? ON GLOBAL OR MUCHMUSIC. I DON'T KNOW, THATS WHY THERES CHANNEL 5.

The terrible booth.
Picture one: i like it, normal decent, worth the money :)
Picture two: WTF, how did that happen + my face is gross é she went to go get the cup
Picture three: LOL, she was going to put the cup down.
Picture four: wonderful.
2/2 is NOT that bad :)

Seeking off you square, hoping you won't get caught. Last minute seeing you sponsor/cousin and hoping she won't tell you mom. Stuffing a burger king bag in you TNA bag and afterwords, having you bag smell like grease and a fast food joint. Taking off nail polish out of one of your best friend fingers and sticking fake nails on. Trying on hooker shoes from payless. Going clothes shopping out of you friend drawers. Emptying out you loaded TNA bag filled with clothes and a burger king bag trying to look for your keys. spending money on a really bad photo booth picture,seeing copies of 2 people from your grade 8 class then laughing in front of their faces, watching pay-per-view on the bus, having a big group of people stare at you, but above everything NOTHING BEATS GOING TO THE MALL WITH $25 AND GOING HOME WITH $5. SHIT. All spent on food, bus, and boothies.

If you haven't noticed by now, the pictures don't move on the "plans" section. but that's only for FireFox people. It only works on the Internet explorer. just so you know :)

So, i was editing this thing, and my "twitter fail" blog was born around 11pm. but it said 8. so i was like, whaaaaaaatdaaaphuck, that's wrong. FALSE INFO IS A BITCH. anyways, omg this whole entire freaking time my blog times were wrong. So, i went to settings hoping i could fix this, and it seemed to be you could fix your own time zones, it just happened to be mine time zone was set on Pacific something time, now its eastern standard :)

Hmmm, all in a days life of a NOOB.

I'm pretty sure most of you guys have heard of twitter. Well, i have it. the link is pretty much all over my July archives, and my link section. And it my 2 weeks of twitter .. how the hell do you work the damn thing. like i reply to what some celebrities tweet, but i don't get anything from them back. OR they just aren't replying. haha, maybe that it. but they reply to everyone else's. like rude much ? I know their busy people as shit but c'mon. just reply once ! WTF. dumb people.

okie dokie, mission accomplished. i finally got "plans" to disappear and work. LOL, wow codes have to be specific. it was only cause i did have a capital letter where there should've been. Mmm, i sorta wanna change this now. but i just got it to work. I want something sorta like this but better. I am gonna go Blogspot skin layout background hunting !

this will be gone soon. Btw, if i like your background. i can steal your codes. MY BROTHER TOUGHT ME. but you can't steal mine, cause mine has a condom on it. it has hefty protection. watch out.

Well, its 3 and i don't wanna sleep. Webcamimg with andrea is funny. she tought me how to stick up your middle finger but in arabic. it everything but your middle finger and you have you flick your hands around. Bored, i'm biting on this string thing, and its salty.
Eww, gross. i know. i just finshed updating this damn thing, i just can't seem to find out why "plans" don't dissappear like the others, MY NEW MISSION