please forgive me

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realshit

I stop caring about people when people stop caring about me
I've had enough of guys treating me like shit
Memories from my past still haunt me because you guys hurt me so bad
I walk with fear in school because I'm afraid I'm gonna bump into you
& I'm afraid that if I do bump into you, you might make fun of me, that's why I hate being alone
I wish something bad would happen to me so I could see who actually cares
I wish I was one of those girls who easily get along with boys
I'm not, I'm way different than that
I cry at the thought of me, my mom and my friends dying because i don't want to be alone
I think I'm ugly and I'm afraid because of that i'll never fall in love.
I am cold blooded
I'm afraid of failing and making my parents disappointed
I want to be a virgin when I get married, but I don't think it's going to happen
I wish i've kissed someone by now. I want my first to be with someone I LOVE.
Money does buy me happiness, well for as much as i know
I wish my hair was perfect. My smile. My body. My face. Me.
By this, I think you've already noticed I'm insecure
I was never as shy and quite as I am now and I know why
Ever since a fight a had with a friend, I'm afraid to talk to out mutual friends
I hate smoking, but I wonder it it really helps with pain. Will it help me with mine?
Who I am, isn't who I want to be. What I want to be, hate me.
I wish I could say this is all of them, but it's not even half

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The name'sKarenBundoc.
15/sophomore/angel
I like walking around naked in my house. I shower everyday, on special days 2. and once I showered 3 times a day. I think disney stories/movies are overrated. but they are adorable. shopping helps me, it's my therapy. there is a teddy bear i bring with me to sleepovers and whenever i travel. i don't know it;s name yet because i don't know if i want a boy or a girl. i want a girl. but it just looks like a boy. my grandma gave it too me and i miss her very much.

To-Do/Wish List:

Strong muscular fighting kind-hearted man
Leland Chapman
John Cena
Batista
Georges St. pierre
criss angel

life lesson. (Wednesday, April 28, 2010)

If a guy wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
Stop making excuses for his behavior.
Let your intuition save you from getting hurt.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.

Never live your life for a guy before you find what makes you truly happy.
If a relationship ends because the guy wasn't treating you right then fuck that.
Obviously you can't "be friends".
A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don`t settle for less.
If you feel like he is stringing you along, leading you on cause he wants someone there then he probably is.
Don't stay with him because you think "it'll get better."
You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things aren't better & probably didn't get better.
The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
So don't expect him to listen and do everything you say, their not trained animals.
As much as it doesn't seem like it sometimes, they have feelings too.
Avoid guys who have slept with a bunch of different girls.
He didn't care about about how the girls felt after their one night stand, why would he treat you any differently?
He wouldn't, cause your probably not different.
He probably said and did the same things with you that he did with the other ones.

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Have some boundaries in how a guy treats you.
If something bothers you, speak up.
He can't read your mind, talking helps, yelling gets you nowhere.
Crying isn't gonna make things any better or help either.
Never let a guy know everything, as much as you trust him now he'll use it against you later.
You can't change how a guy acts.
Changing is a decision they make themselves, & they'll only do it if they want to.
Don't ever make him feel like he is more important than you are.
If you both care enough about each other, your both equal.

Don't make him your everything, he's a guy, nothing more nothing less.
Never let him define who you are as a person.
He's suppose to be with you cause he likes YOU.
Never "borrow" someone else's guy.
If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you again.
A guy will only treat you the way you allow him to treat you.
All guys aren`t whores.

You shouldn't be the one making all the sacrifices, compromise is a two way street.
You need time to heal between relationships, there is nothing cute about a relationship that comes with baggage.
Deal with your issues before going into a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to complete you, being dependant gets you nowhere.
The whole point of a relationship is to take each others bullshit and pull through it cause you care but not when it comes to the point that it's unhealthy.
A relationship consists of two people.
Look for someone that you could bring the best out in & that'll bring the best out in you.
Dating is supposed to be fun, even if he doesn't turn out to be who you thought he was.
It's not suppose to stress you out, it's not suppose to be a hassle.
Your with that other person because you like spending time with them, not to argue & fight.
Don't spend every minute of everyday with him.
When a guy always know where you are, and you're always available, he takes it for granted.
Don't fully commit to a guy who's not fully committed to you.

Dont make him a priority, when your only an option.