realshit
I stop caring about people when people stop caring about me
I've had enough of guys treating me like shit
Memories from my past still haunt me because you guys hurt me so bad
I walk with fear in school because I'm afraid I'm gonna bump into you
& I'm afraid that if I do bump into you, you might make fun of me, that's why I hate being alone
I wish something bad would happen to me so I could see who actually cares
I wish I was one of those girls who easily get along with boys
I'm not, I'm way different than that
I cry at the thought of me, my mom and my friends dying because i don't want to be alone
I think I'm ugly and I'm afraid because of that i'll never fall in love.
I am cold blooded
I'm afraid of failing and making my parents disappointed
I want to be a virgin when I get married, but I don't think it's going to happen
I wish i've kissed someone by now. I want my first to be with someone I LOVE.
Money does buy me happiness, well for as much as i know
I wish my hair was perfect. My smile. My body. My face. Me.
By this, I think you've already noticed I'm insecure
I was never as shy and quite as I am now and I know why
Ever since a fight a had with a friend, I'm afraid to talk to out mutual friends
I hate smoking, but I wonder it it really helps with pain. Will it help me with mine?
Who I am, isn't who I want to be. What I want to be, hate me.
I wish I could say this is all of them, but it's not even half
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The name's
KarenBundoc.
15/sophomore/angel
I like walking around naked in my house. I shower everyday, on special days 2. and once I showered 3 times a day. I think disney stories/movies are overrated. but they are adorable. shopping helps me, it's my therapy. there is a teddy bear i bring with me to sleepovers and whenever i travel. i don't know it;s name yet because i don't know if i want a boy or a girl. i want a girl. but it just looks like a boy. my grandma gave it too me and i miss her very much.
To-Do/Wish List:
- Strong muscular fighting kind-hearted man
- Leland Chapman
- John Cena
- Batista
- Georges St. pierre
- criss angel
gooodbye my loooooooove! (Friday, June 17, 2011)
alright so last day with this beautiful white guy: well yenno not that i planned it but i walked in the class in short shorts .. honestly, it wasn't planned, but i entered and you were at my desk, and i walked in and you smirked, uh THAT SMIRK and you said "what? civies" and i said "naw i went out and it was hot as fuck" and you hugged me from behind and felt my boobs and seriously all i did i smile at this then said stop because we was doing this in the front of the room, so i was about to walk out because no one was showing up, and he was gonna leave anyways, and you followed me to the back and when i was about to leave you were like "hey yo, come here" and we kissed and your hand right away went straight to my pussy. and like .. you guys know what comes after this, then when someone entered, i left the class and said "dude, have a good summer" smiled and bit my lip and you smiled and said "you too" GOOOOODBYE MY SECRET LOVER.
hellllllllllo to a boring ass summer, goodbye to my lovely fling.
kkk (Thursday, June 16, 2011)
on wednesday,
we got caught but mr. sampson, while your hands were up my skirt.
today, you went all pussy on me and ASKED jared to walk you to class. SO YOU KNOW WHAT TOMORROW I'M GONNA FUCKING SWEAT IDGAF. before i never did anything cause i was afraid i'd look bad for you, but I AM GONNA DO WHAT I WANT ON THE LAST DAY AND WHETHER I GET A HUG OR NOT I'M GONNA BE HAPPY.
day 2 (Tuesday, June 14, 2011)
let me explain day, in as much detail as i can:
so i walk into class, and say "yoo ****" then you smile and say "yoo!" usually i'd go straight to him but shannon was waiting at the door, so yenno. FRIEND FIRST. i walk her to the end of the hallway then speedwalk down to class LMFAO. so then we hug, you know how the hugs go. Starts around the mid section of my back, then moves down to my ass, i like it. then you've done this before where you put your forehead on my forehead but i kinda backed away cause i got scared but seriously, i was like "fuck it" IT'S THE LAST WEEK. so your forehead was on mine and like you were about to kiss me then i kinda backed away, but then you went in again and like yeah, we kissed and last time we kissed you were the only one using you tongue but this time i was like, KAREN PUT YOUR TONGUE IN THAT MAN MOUTH. and bam, nothing big LOL iiiight so, you usually lift my uniform shirt up so you can grab a whole chunk of my ass, which you did but this time your hands up my shirt to the point where your hands were caressing my back and like touching my bra strap. THEN WE HEARD THE DOOR KNOB JIGGLE. so i kinda pushed him off of me and like nobody was at the door so i was like "what the hell just happened" (i was talking about the door btw) and at this point one of his arms were around my waist, one was touching my boob and my hands were on his chest. Then i went in for a kiss and you took your hands outta my shirt. and it was like 11:53 so i was like omg people are gonna come in soon so i kinda backed away and i was gonna stop but he grabbed me and hugged me from behind, and started touching my boobs and like my downstairs place. and seriously touch it all you want, but do it while were face to face, i just like it better like that. so i turned around so you could do whatever you want LOL USUALLY YOUR BACK IS ON THE LAB BENCH. but you turned me over so my back was on the lab bench. and you started leaning towards me so i started bending back, and i have a back of a 65 year old ok? so i started going on my tippy toes as you were leaning towards me, then i don't know what happened after all i rememeber was basically ending up on my back and one of my legs wrapped around you as we make out. 5 MINUTES IS ENOUGH.
day 2: so i walk in and i'm like "shannon's waiting so me" she actually wasn't i justed wanted to prep yenno and like in a rude sexy way you were like "so" and you smirked. then i ran and hugged you, this one went by faster. like after you grabbed my ass you turned me around and like literally started squeezing my boobs and like .. i liked it, i didn't care. Seriously i was getting so turned on i was about freaking give this man a handjob while we were making out. I DIDN'T THO. but uh we heard a sound from the back room and no one was there and you started moving my hands down there but i kinda resisted. i'm sorry bro, but if you want me to go down then it's not gonna be in school, but feel free to go down on me whenever. anyways basically the same story as above. oh but today you always started like rubbing up against me and like i litterally felt your dick up against my clit area and like .. i seriously just .. PUT IT IN ALREADY LIKE FUCK.
anyways, i hope the rest of the week will be good to me :)
last week of school (Monday, June 13, 2011)
I don't wanna say much but basically we made out again. The highlight of this one was when you were leaning on me and my back arc'd up against the lab bench. And the way you grab my ass. And touch my boobs! And you touched my pussy once already. Anyways, just blogging so I can remember.
quickie (Wednesday, June 8, 2011)
kkkkkkkkkkkkkkk point form time ..
-you touched my pussy, well idek what your hands were doing. but it was outside of the skirt. and it felt good. but uh i didn't want you to stop .. LOL yeah
-the door was locked and you were inside and opened the door for me and we were hugging and doing our usual stuff. then everyone from our class kept knocking on the door and we just kept on hugging LMFAO it was hot
-the time when you smacked my ass with your skateboard and did that other thing
-you massaged my back and shoulders (L) u r great
JUST THOUGHT I SHOULD SAY I WILL CRY ONCE THIS SEMESTER ENDS. GOODBYE TO ALL THIS.
can I just have a stable guy who likes me and we can just do boyfriend and girlfriend things without the whole 'i love you' thing.
hoe (Wednesday, June 1, 2011)
So basically we went from hugging and kissing, to being friends and back to whatever we were doing. Idk i just wanna kiss and have fun. Like seriously. CAN SOMEONE MAKE OUT WITH ME.
