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I stop caring about people when people stop caring about me
I've had enough of guys treating me like shit
Memories from my past still haunt me because you guys hurt me so bad
I walk with fear in school because I'm afraid I'm gonna bump into you
& I'm afraid that if I do bump into you, you might make fun of me, that's why I hate being alone
I wish something bad would happen to me so I could see who actually cares
I wish I was one of those girls who easily get along with boys
I'm not, I'm way different than that
I cry at the thought of me, my mom and my friends dying because i don't want to be alone
I think I'm ugly and I'm afraid because of that i'll never fall in love.
I am cold blooded
I'm afraid of failing and making my parents disappointed
I want to be a virgin when I get married, but I don't think it's going to happen
I wish i've kissed someone by now. I want my first to be with someone I LOVE.
Money does buy me happiness, well for as much as i know
I wish my hair was perfect. My smile. My body. My face. Me.
By this, I think you've already noticed I'm insecure
I was never as shy and quite as I am now and I know why
Ever since a fight a had with a friend, I'm afraid to talk to out mutual friends
I hate smoking, but I wonder it it really helps with pain. Will it help me with mine?
Who I am, isn't who I want to be. What I want to be, hate me.
I wish I could say this is all of them, but it's not even half
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The name's
KarenBundoc.
15/sophomore/angel
I like walking around naked in my house. I shower everyday, on special days 2. and once I showered 3 times a day. I think disney stories/movies are overrated. but they are adorable. shopping helps me, it's my therapy. there is a teddy bear i bring with me to sleepovers and whenever i travel. i don't know it;s name yet because i don't know if i want a boy or a girl. i want a girl. but it just looks like a boy. my grandma gave it too me and i miss her very much.
To-Do/Wish List:
- Strong muscular fighting kind-hearted man
- Leland Chapman
- John Cena
- Batista
- Georges St. pierre
- criss angel
early christmas list (Friday, September 30, 2011)
1) pittsburgh penguins sweatshirt - http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=12151220&cp=3169591.3176618&clickid=body_bestsell_img
- http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=11938265&cp=3176618&clickid=body_bestsell_txt
2) Chicago blackhawks sweatshirt - http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=12151206&cp=3169591.3176430&clickid=body_bestsell_img
- http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=11938248&cp=3176430&clickid=body_bestsell_txt
3) Carolina Hurricanes sweatshirt - http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=11938247&cp=12172517&clickid=body_bestsell_txt
- http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=12151205&cp=3169591.3176610&clickid=body_bestsell_img
4) Montreal Canadiens sweatshirt - http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=11938257&cp=3176612&clickid=body_bestsell_txt
- http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=12151213&cp=3169591.3176612&clickid=body_bestsell_img
5) Ottawa Senators sweatshirt - http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=11938262&cp=3176616&clickid=body_bestsell_txt
- http://shop.canada.nhl.com/product/index.jsp?productId=12151218&cp=3176616&clickid=body_bestsell_txt
6) A gift card to soft moc or the NHL online store :) preferbly the NHL online store
7) the book "a bad boy can be good for a girl"
exactly in that order .... HONESTLY I KNOW THE SWEATERS ARE PRICEY BUT DEAR GOD PLEASE :( it sucks cause i know i'm not getting it :'( I HONESTLY JUST WANT SPORTS SWEATERS :(
summer's over (Wednesday, September 28, 2011)
The days where you just know that things could be better. Where you know that the stressful things that are happening to you wouldn't be happening if you could just talk to them.
bad boys (Saturday, September 24, 2011)
Some people call them players
But I'm far from terrified
Cause somehow I'm drawn to danger
And have been all my life
It feels my hearts divided
Half way between wrong and right
I know I'm playing with fire but I don't know why
i love aimee (Wednesday, September 14, 2011)
"I think you just met the right person at the wrong time" -Aimee <3
fuck this shit ()
I basically spend most of my time in my brothers room since he moved out. It's bigger and it has alot of windows. And right now I'm just walking around, lying down and like doing both over and over again. I don't know what the fuck I want or what is wrong with me. Right I either just wanna drop dead or like punch sonething. I'm so fucking pissed and depressed. HOW CAN I TALK TO PEOPLE ABOUT THIS WHEN HALF OF THEM OF THEM ARE THE PROBLEM?
FUCK EVERYTHING ()
Things aren't going my way and I'm getting kind of tired and just so fed up with having to deal with this stuff everytime. I know I can probably prevent some of the stuff that happens but I just don't. I'm in some next fucking depressed mood right now. Listening to my loud songs in the dark and drinking whisky. Can I just sleep and have someone wake me up when my life decides to go right?
my life (Tuesday, September 13, 2011)
I'm lay in bed listening to music and suddenly I cannot feel the rest of my body. It just feels like the world is going by so fast and so slow at the same time. I find myself thinking about how happy I was there, how happy I was with you. My life there was just so easy, I loved it. I miss the Philippines so much. Not only because of John but because of the way I'm treated there compared to here. The way he talked to me and held me when we were hugging. Whenever I think about him I get this butterflyish feeling hoping that we'll get a happy ending. That one day he'll like runaway and come to Canada and we can run off together and just not look back. Maybe he isn't the one I'll spend the rest of my life with but I sure wouldn't mind living there just to give love a shot. This entire thing has been making me think so much.
Sometimes I just can't help but regret sexting with people I never even liked. Or dating the guys I did, it's no secret if you ask me that I pity dated all my ex's. After being introduced to the better kinds of guys out there, I don't wanna settle for whatever I did before. I'll have some fun. But in the end it's either I want John, A John or nothing at all.
Why does this hurt so much? :(
i cannot move on (Saturday, September 10, 2011)
It doesn't hurt as much to miss John. As time begins to fade, letting go just seems a little but easier. Whenever I see a new guy, I always seem to be looking for you in them. And when I feel like I'm about to get a new crush I decide to send someone a message to give to you, hoping that you would actually get it just so you know how much you actually mean to me. But the thing is I never go through with it because I'm afraid of what you might say, I'm afraid that you might've moved on. All I want is to remember us like we were in the summer.
it's a little bit funny (Thursday, September 1, 2011)
I just found myself thinking about John and how happy I was when I was with him. And how much I miss him and the memories we have together. And I just started to tear up. I miss him so much, I just wanna talk to him. But then reality hits and he's just not here
